First reaction was to cry out to God. "Dad, my dad is gone!"
I stopped in my tracks after realising I had called him "Dad". I call Him Father most of the times and this realisation reminded me that He is the father of the fatherless. Whatever need I had for my dad he is the one to fill it now.
I hadn't cried but I was feeling heavy whenever I thought about it. I needed to get it out. I needed to be comforted. I went into my room I couldn't cry still but could not stop groaning. John 14 comforted me and I wrote a song/poem:
I love you, Father.
You are my help in need;
You give me comfort;
You are now my dad.
You sent your word for me
Your word of comfort
"I am your father
You are now my child."
My heart was troubled
How am I gonna live without my dad?
You gave me comfort
"I won't leave as an orphan"
Your word was surest for me
I took it by faith and belief
It washed away my sorrow
My heart was at peace
When thoughts of despair take over
I am not that wise and strong
To help my family
Please don't be far from me
I love you, father.
You are my source of peace
Not as the world can give
I will rest in you.