All Sorts of Thoughts Considering

I thought for a while about todays loss. In my confidence, I spoke.
Its only a holiday. At the thought of a company boss giving this
holiday to his employees. I felt him think: are we going to eat
football? The question of eating caught me. I had thought of not
eating but I decided to go on and eat today. For I asked in my heart
without rain are we going to eat? So today I ate and did not go on
praying. For rain meant my unhappiness for the nation but now I should
eat for maybe indeed God will keep His anger and they might be no food
tomorrow.

Support is the only thing that was missing in our players which for
some reason there seem to be no Malawian in Angola. One loss can bring
so much defeat without external confidence which Malawians did not
have. I will speak on the labour laws which the companies manupulate
to favour only themselves.

In 2008, I almost lost my job because on 1st October 2008 fulfilled
the first year together with her. The only woman who has been kind and
has been by my side always and especially in times everybody
disregarded me. When I remembered the pain I have experienced seeking
love I cried and this woman comforted me it was a day of rejoicing not
crying again. When I was left out to a conference trip unjustly in the
pain and distress I would not have managed to do my thesis. This woman
turned my eyes to look at what I have. Am I being unrealistic? For how
long can one stand on one foot? At this moment, the bestest friend
inflicted the worst pain. I feel like I am in big sin today against
her having prioritised the nation.

My company required me to be at office on a holiday which happened to
be special to me: if the company feels justified to fire me for not
working on a holiday, I would rather not work for anybody. For a whole
month I was not paid over this issue. I had been patient but I felt
the same patience would block my access to heaven, for if it works
only one side(the labour laws favouring the company more than the
employee) it becomes a burden on the employee and becomes bitterness
on the employee. Even if they loved their job, the don't do a good job
anymore. Who wants to do a good thing for a slave driver? They would
rather have him died so they could be free. Chilembwe, a man of God,
our Hero.

I will speak for the sake of Malawi. How do they distroy these
countries with good economies? I am looking at Zimbabwe, Malawi,
China, Iraq, Nigeria, etc. For Malawi, they said, they want a little
freedom, freedom they did give but it was also freedom to do bad then
they said, lets now dig up the evil they have done, a lot of
corruption they did find. A little good idea here and there they are
now the wise, the wise become the caretaker, the caretake gives
handouts(they even give handouts for people to sin as well - how can
God create a homosexial and punish them for being a homosexial? God
did not create homosexials. God created them Male and Female in His
own image. He also saw that it was not good for man to be alone
created woman for him. Because they did not listen to Him he gave them
over to the pervese mind they wanted: some became homosexial in their
perversion ena anatong'ola nawo maso).

In thankfulness to the caretaker people enslave themselves. When time
comes, the caretaker thinks in his heart I will pull of the plug and
all these people will do what I want them to do.

We have a hunger looming over Malawi. Its not all parts of the nation
having this problem. His excellency might have plans to share our
harvest with others outside Malawi but this time each country should
cultivate their own crop the only thing to share is ideas not food.
For indeed the slave driver is pulling of his trigger evident from the
problems funding the budget. I would love it if Malawi does not depend
on subsidies for this is another kind of slavely. If we don't have
money for fertilizer we have at least manure which is absolutely free
and a much better solution than fertilizer. Where is ARET where is
ACHIKUMBE magazines? Where are all those model farmers we have always
seen along the M1?
We eat cooked maize cobs roasted maize cobs throughout the year this
too is food that can be preserved to fill up the coffers that might
have been depleated.

The education we spent so much on, would have helped so much and
without limit if we encouraged each other; If the employee were given
good conditions in doing the job they love, the job done would have
benefited every other malawian even those not working. In denying the
employees holidays, we create unhappy employees. Unhappy employees do
the worst job than employees on leave. I believe 15 days leave a year
is not enough. I love google they give their employees one day off a
week to do their personal work. And this is apart from saturday and
sunday which are naturally holidays.

I will now educate the ministry of education textbook ideas on plannig
an education for the country: simple architecture, history, statistics
to plan on educating a nation.

Planning a school: how many students do we need on this school? x
students. How many teachers? Suppose student teacher ratio is a:b. We
need (x/a)b teachers. Plan a school to hold x students, hostels to
accomodate x students. Build houses to accommodate (x/a)b teachers. To
refine the plan: let's dig up our previous experiences to come up with
x. Is a:b really an optimal ratio? History answers most of those
questions from the trends. Statistics comes in to quantify historical
trends for proper planning. This by the study of the population growth
of areas in which to build schools.

How about the headmaster? He is like a father taking care of his
teachers: he has y teachers but he needs z more. Finds good
accomodation for his teachers and his students, of course. Are the
extra z teachers I need going to find good accomodation? If there is
non, he could arrange some to be rented of course. The community love
him for he helps their children get education. A teacher hunting on
her own will take the whole year hunting without finding one. A
headmaster can easily mobilise a community he so much knows by this
time and will find hundreds of houses available of all kind just for
one teacher to chose from. For the teacher is also a precious
commodity to the community. Seeking on her she doesn't find the house
for they do not know her as the respectable person she is. But if the
headmaster they know introduces are they will protect her day and
night every footsteps she takes. She is that precious.

Zain sends a text message now the game is gone and no internet
connection when the game was on. I had to use twitter to support my
team when I could have used facebook. The sms gives me link for me to
follow soccer results. An insult of sort considering?

Malawi played well and the players have really done the very best they
can. They needed support. Support from us who always they win but
insult them when lose. With the weight of nation on their shoulders,
the fear of torment of the insult for losing, the fear that their
first win might have been false indication of their improvement, the
fear of Mali's performance with Angola, the beginning of the game, the
confirmation of their fears, the lack of external support to build on.

Its time for supporters to play their part of the game for players
have. Football is not only players its also supporters.

--
Accept The Challenge God Will Guide.

Pessions and Salaries

I have just spoken to a relative worrying about the father not working anymore. He used to work what was know as Shire Bus Lines before liquidation but has grown up with it. A good driver/mechanic whom if there had been no privatisation would have been enjoying his pession(though too little for todays financial needs) but would suffice than nothing in old age.

How can these people really be helped? Expect from their children?

To rotate the circle here is a situation I think so much overlooked. A father like him educates a child to get to college and get a job. He expects to rest(retire; not work through the life he has been alive) after that. When the child gets a job he is expected to help the Father who is living on a small pession. But his wages are calculated to suffice only for him. The pession of the Father as well to suffice only for him as an individual. The father has a wife and afew other dependants and relatives at the village. The young graduate has young brothers and a father to take care of. How do we break even?

Now for the father whose company was privatised before any of his children could qualify for university, the situation is worse. He has no pension and no child educated enough to get a break-even salary and support him.

Restructuring: a stastical survey that gives a distribution which is skewed towards the upper quartile for the rich and skewed towards the lower quartile for the poor is bad as bad can be. A normal distribution is required. In restructuring for a salary of a malawian employee the extended family show also be considered other than the household itself. The pension should also consider this. No wonder you find no employee happy with their wages in the civil service.

The law: it seems the law has put fixed amounts in most charges, fines, wages, etc. These things with changing economies deprecate and become useless. Is it possible to put something representative which changes with the changing (is it, inflation rates)? Discount Houses and Banks must have worked these out. It now remains with lawyers to work these out I guess. They don't even have to work alone. We have economists who can help.

Remember also those not receiving pensions from privatised companies.

Sent from my BlackBerry smartphone

Of Flag Changes and Meanings

I am chatting with my niece Cathy. Its new year's day seems like we are
the only people who have no where to go. I am going through the
newspaper looking for a vacancy and she has past me the paper and
somehow sees this advert to change the flag. She complains they want to
change the flag! I don't like it I will have to be memorizing again what
colors the flag has.
I thought flags have meanings to its people colors and logos, mission statements, determine the turn people takes. Do we know
the meaning of the new flag? Or How many people have knowlegde of the
meaning of our flag. Many will just says we have black if for the black
people red is for the blood.(Some would put their own meanings of course
because even white people have red blood) there are native white people
in Malawi who have chosen Malawi as their home.
I looked at the flag and thought about words Kamuzu used to say always
talking to the people of Malawi(Kwacha! Ufulu! Mtendere!) I see the sun
against a black background dawn, alright. Why ufulu? Why Mtendere? How
much blood was shed for us to get the enlightment against the oppression
of the white? How much blood to fight for our freedom from the
oppression? Lest we forget now that we are living in peace. People
prosper with a peaceful mind.
Of what meaning is the new flag to the values of the Malawian People? If
stated, we compare and chose what we want to value. In troubled times
memories like these of Kwacha! Ufulu! Mtendere! even in the age of
enlightment, wisdom and knowledge in the absense of rememberance of what
has brought here falling back the dark ages is very easy. Though times
are different some enlightment have been there and some blood as well.
Will the sunset some day? I do believe there are the same processes of
Kwacha Ufulu and Mtendere that we are going through though the natures
of fight of freedom from which blood is still shed are different.

Kansale kokoma kunsinde kowawa pakati komanso kunsonga. So many people
are willing to start at the beginning of the enlightment. Not many go on
when the fight begins. Not many survive to eat the fruits. The born
frees like me would never know the pain if the message of the precious
freedom faught for is lost. Blood really is kuwawa kwa pakati. Green is
really kukoma kwa ufulu so painfully faught for. But it all begins with
enlightment of the ways by which people in pain having endured for long
could be set free.

Even the age of democracy have had its kansale kokoma kunside, kansale
kowawa pakati, kansale kokomanso kunsinde. I would rather the message of
the flag not daluted.

If a leader leads the people to God, God blesses a nation. Tiyende
pamodzi ndi mtima umodzi. Tiyende pamoza na mtima umo. I like the song.

In Unity: The leader says, we are all Malawians. The preacher says we
are all children of God created by God. An individual you and me say, we
are next door neighbours.

On Quota Governement Scholarship

From what I have heard and understood of the Quota scholarship the government wants to introduce. The problem and fear and confusion come from the use of the word Quota and its history and what it means to the people to implement it.

There has been a marginalization of the people of the Northern region. It happened that in the past, teachers of the north were send home. This was a wrong thing to do but God worked it out for them and turned things around such that with the overflow of teachers people of the north students in the north had better student teacher ratio and students of the north passed better than those in the center and south. And based on merit they qualified better and than those from the center and south. And this is the qualification that gave them higher positions in almost all government departments and companies. And it is this same awareness of the importance of education that inspired the younger generations of the people of the north to work harder and qualify still more while the center and the south are still not aware yet of its importance.

It is true that there is an obvious imbalance in the work places where people of the north are in larger numbers than those in the south and center. Someone was saying in his company there all people of the north in big positions and the only person for the south is a technician. For somebody who has less understanding about how this got to be, would conclude that there has been favoritism. But the truth is when looking at application letters and shortlisting people rarely look at names. The may look at other factors like good behavior and other qualities up to working relationship with other employees. But really do they look at names. It might be there comes a tie in all these and then the question would arise whom do I support? or it might be who do I relate better with? One of the north or my fellow southerner. It would be a question of “with the marginalization I have experienced if something bad crops up who would support me?” For a fellow northerner would come to your aid being in the same shoes as you in terms of marginalization than a southerner who would even set you up just to put you down.

But how do we overcome this imbalance? The government suggests of the quota system. It is not a good solution. And based on history I do not want it. For though its intentions may be good, but the use of the word quota would incite fear in those who have been affected by it in the past. It would bring the tribalism it brought in the past for the implementers.
But there is still an imbalance (for some reason I could think God remembered the people of the south and central by choosing a leader and all other positions from the north to protect them). The President might still want some solutions to resolve these if no better solution is found he might still want to implement this and now politically or forcefully which we would not want.

Suppose we are in his shoes. How would we resolve this? How does God give rain to both his people and his enemies? For the success of the people of the north bring so much fear in the people of the south and central that they might destroy each other just out of fear. Barring the people of the north to give some room for the people of the south and central again is unjust to the people of the north such that with their small population they would be further marginalized to an extent that it would be difficult for them to live in this country of their own. It is good for the president/government not to take part in this. But the people themselves to find a solution to this. Somebody said:

Don’t ask what the Government can do for you but what you can do for the government

But if the people can’t find a solution the leader has to. But again his solution might not be the best and he needs input from us he has said this many times.

My Suggestion: Think up a better solution

In some countries people get scholarships for college not only for academic success but also success in other things such as sports, music and all sorts of other talents. Like the situation of William Kamkwamba an inventor and the Gabriel Kondesi an entrepreneur. William Kamkwamba is not the only inventor in Malawi nor is Gabriel Kondesi the only entrepreneur. Its a search of these talents that we need to support and improve so that even those who are not successful in class would also find recognition in the society. So for instant William Kamkwamba Scholarship for those who are innovative and talented as him. And Esau Kanyenda Scholarship for those who are good in sports and Gabriel Kondesi Fund. For those who have not been good enough for a university education and have found something to do in life and might still want to do college.

My mum even though she did not have a chance to finish her secondary education to support her sick aunt, finished her secondary through correspondence says she would love to go and do university and graduate with distinction.

My sister who failed qualify for university because she did not have credit in English found a chance to do a degree in accountancy in Kenya in 3 years and she is currently working. But chances of getting a scholarship in the private sector is too tough. These too need support not from the government only but also from the people and the private sector regardless of whether they would work on the same company or not.

My brother wanted to do medicine all along so did my brother’s son. He had hopes that even though he had been selected in a degree course he did not want, he would still find a chance to go to medicine and pursue his dream career. But due to difference in academic calendars and the changes that occurred in his year, he was not selected at second year as it always had been, he was not selected after completion of his degree; for he had to complete his teaching practicals or forfeit his degree. And even though he has tried to explain his case, and even asked to reapply and he has been denied chance of pursuing a career of his choice. He too seeks to pursue the career of his choice but scholarships are had to get based on academic merit. He is good at volleyball though. Several times he has qualified for training for international games and the issues of transportation cost and passport have been limiting factors. Funded He would certainly do his career choice.

My brother’s son out of de-motivation that my brother has failed to go to College of Medicine, has lost hope of completing his education for there seems to be no university in Malawi where he can qualify to be a doctor in Malawi. He had 11 points like me on MSCE. He was taken into Bachelor of Science Education. He was also accepted to do pre-medicals but the fee was too high. He opted to continue with Bachelor of Education with a hope to qualify for medicine. He is good at acrobatics and applied for the Military Medicine Scholarship recently advertised but they probably gave priority to the those already in the military. If more of these could introduced he has greater chance of pursuing his career choice.

I managed to do my first choice course Bachelor of Science and I believe would have managed to do my second choice course Engineering if I had put it first choice. I would have loved to engineering instead. My dad would have loved me to do medicine which I thought is not an easy career for me. Bachelor of Science offered me chances to go with medicine God willing, or Computer Science which I thought I could stand. In my wants of wants I would have loved to do music (Bachelor of Arts) but it seemed and felt like a luxury to do so when others fail to qualify for better things they would have loved to do and not based on merit for that matter but imposition. I managed to learn somethings here and their anyway.
I managed to get a job fulfilling both my dream and my fathers dream at baobabhealth trust which I lost trying to save my relationship, complete my master's degree, save the job and find my faith before God for my complete healing. I managed to finish my degree. There is hope that the job loss was not in vain. There is hope for my relationship. I have found faith before God. And I have healed. But my girlfriend is not happy for she too would love to do her choice career.

My girlfriend did Bachelor of Education not of her own choice but because that was only the chance she had to do university education. Her choice career is Social Sciences and it seems wrong to get her into marriage at this time for she would love to pursue it as a masters degree. She is the pride of her family. But would she do it well with a guilty conscious of having left someone she loved? A little failure would de-motivate so much than otherwise to achieve her goals. I could support her being at work but distance does so much harm to a relationship. The hurt after of being left after so much of this support is so heart breaking and I don’t think I couldn’t manage to live on with it at this moment. I would love to go with her to let her pursue the career of her choice. I seem to be lucky academically, I has been easier for me and I would probably get a scholarship to take her with me and for the chances of her doing education there are higher. But I would love her to think of me apart from the help I could give her. For I would love her to love me in the absence of this help which I think she does, but she has more pressing issues. She could find support on her own for being good in sports. She too has qualified to play in international university games for being good at hockey. But the distance does harm to a relationship and would I stand the temptations alone in this period?

There are other situations and more I could explained, to point out others who could qualify not based on merit but other good qualities.

Conclusion:
We would not expect other nations to support those who fail to qualify on academic merit and so, more the need for introducing such scholarships in our own country which would give a chance and hope for others to do university education. Others are de-motivated to try for the mere thought that nobody in the family has managed to go to university.

We need to search for talents other than academic which can be promoted as it is done in other nations. This too is merit. Double scholarships for couples is also a good idea. For based on academic merit or other talents discussed above, one could qualify but not their partner. Factors of distance, trust and temptation in today’s world with HIV/AIDS around, to lose a loving trusted partner for the sake of education is not my choice of career. For in the end too much education without a life is worse than no education at all but with a house, a family and some food. One does education to find a better life for him, his wife and his children and then his immediate family who have not been fortunate to have a better life. If he does not achieve these, what is the purpose of living or a higher education?

This too might be a solution to some issues brought up in the marriage act: where the allowable marriage age is 18years old for someone to marry but for those who are younger, they should not be less than 16years old and should seek parental consent.

Many fail to continue and opt to get married at the hopelessness of achieving the academic requirements and failure to let these get married acceptably gives another hopelessness which fails them to abstain and be faithful to their partners even way before they complete their education. This is worse than what we are trying to achieve in the end. Parental consent would be the parents in acceptance to help these through problems they can’t stand on their own not being very mature(this includes physical maturity) and it would also be encouraging them to see a future they do not see right now so they could be a little more patient to get married later and even help them accomplish this future. In this way they build a happy future for their children them.

So if academic merit is a limiting factor to university education and there is a need for those in south or central to have exposure to university education. There are all these other things that could qualify one to university education. It might be supporting one person in a village for a good thing he has done(a model farm, a model business, an innovative idea, a model relationship, etc) to go to the university. This could be a source of motivation to other students in that village for hope of a university education. This would also avoid so much tribalism. It would be much better if it was done, not by government, but the people from these regions themselves. And better still for someone from the north to help in the south and from the south to help in the north and forget this tribalism issue.

In the end we are all strangers in this land called Malawi, history says. And each tribe came on their own to settle in different parts of this nation. We chose to unite together to be Malawi. Do we break up now for a thing we are trying to do to bring better unity and fairness?

If there are more and better ideas that would still unite. Let us bring them up still. Even in the heat of so much debate, confusion and fear, forget tribalism and mere no but give solutions. We might have found a president whose ear is willing to listen but surrounded by people who still might have a yes bwana mentally who have not realized yet that this president would listen. For if we continue with the yes bwana thing this president would shut his ear and cease to listen to our ideas and do his own even if they might not be better. For no one head can carry a roof of a house.

Some personal notes:
Reminds of my father: He managed to build a school for the people at our home village and supported to build a church in his prosperity. Even in his last days when we were not so fortunate he helped and pushed, I believe, to build a school and a church near our place of residence. For when we grew up our school was further away from home and so the church. Most of times we would not manage to go to Sunday school every Sunday and so most of us found a chance of being baptized when we got to secondary school. And this he did not by going to parliament but his seeing own peoples needs and doing what he can to help. The little he did is the fruit we now have of a school and church at our home village and even near our place of residence in Mabuchi. He did not do it alone. But the statement in the church says “Tiwuke Tizenge”(Let us start building) Nehemiah 2:17,18. I assume he was the one who said it for my grandfather said a similar statement in starting the work of translating the Tumbuka Bible.

This too, I try to do given a chance, to give some hope, some encouragement, some enlightenment, empowerment where possible and sometimes a first step. Might not do to it better or the best way but its my attempt with hope I might achieve this. Sometimes it feels like I have done nothing and go through so much discouragement until I wake up to find that I managed to achieve what I wanted though not in a way I expected. Sometimes better sometimes a little less. Sometimes it seems worse in the end I learned that God still works out and he makes things work as I expected. This is the same spirit in which the people managed to build the wall of Jerusalem as recorded in Nehemiah. Some built on the part of the wall connected to their houses, some built the whole wall, some stood watch. Some built with weapons in their hands. Every one of these contributed and the overall outcome was they achieved their common goal to build the wall for people to start returning home to Jerusalem. No one was reproached in the little they did.

Because I have spoken of my personal issues and it is said “ask and you shall receive” I also ask: “While others thou art helping do not pass me(and my girl and possibly my family) by”. It might be found that we too might be found worth of these scholarships. It might please you just to help us anyway for we have asked.

Credit to Chisomo Kacheche my brother-in-marriage. Who helped point out mistakes here and there.

Global Warming: Reloaded

On 9th December 2007 I wrote an article about Global Warming and our
solutions. It is difficult indeed to come to balance all things in
nature.
I now have reason to believe that global warming is not only due to
green house gases. A bareground heats up much more than the a covered
ground. A question could be asked of the increase in temperatures is
there also a decrease in temperatures? This could confirm the fact
about the bare ground since it would also cools down more. As a result
of the quick heat up atmospheric temperature would also rise quickly
keeping a highier maximum temperature than previously observed.
In these recent years, I think we have depleted much vegetation
building our settlements. This too could be checked to compare
vegetation cover in the times when we had lower maximum temperatures
with the current vegetation cover of the earth.
The photosynthes solution to be delivered the natural way by
replanting vegetation would correct the global warming in two ways.
Providing the rains to cleanup the polluted skys and provide
vegetation cover to isolate the earth from high heat ups.

Communication Breakdowns

People go through distressing times. Because of what they have gone
through, their reaction changes their behaviour and some exhibit
psychiatric symptoms. That is symptoms that mentally ill people would
have. Some forms of treatment would delay the recovery of such
temporary situations.

I will speak - John 3:16

For all the things that God has taken me through I will praise Him.
For even in this day and night and my loved ones are safe in His arms
who created the earth and the heavens for He alone is. For God is
love. And His love endures forever.

Bangwe Saga: Scientific Proof and Application of the Law

Scientific Proof:
Ways of science are formalized ways of all sorts strategies we apply in everyday life.This has been done for the sake of achieving common goals and bringing in a better understanding in sharing of scientific findings.

Aren't we men? Aren't these way been extracted from our own ways so that the best/better ways learned from different situations have been put together formalized into scientific language and ways.

Bangwe - Experiment By Observation:
A Chicken is thrown in a river an accident happens. Another chicken is thrown an accident happens. No chicken no accident. It might have been this way for a long time and so people start to question for they have been observing these things. There is a relationship between throwing of chickens and the accidents that happen.

Further action:
They go to the police for so that the issue be investigated. The Police without looking at the facts reply we can't help you for this seems to be like witch craft and we don't have any provisions in our law(lacking scientific proof - what is science anyway? finding out the truth about something - the definition I have grown up with). The fact that they too have observed from whatever they have heard they conclude it is something to do with witchcraft this is more scientific evidence where they are now a control of the experiment being an independent observation based on the facts given. But they do not know any law to apply so they can't help.

Starting Point:
The actions are evidently breaching peace and inciting fear in this community. The fear is incited by these people coming now and then to drop chickens and lemons and maybe other things. And accidents have been happening on this place. We could have said they are disposing dead chickens. But then why lemons as well? And why so many different persons? Why on this same spot which happen to be a place where so many accidents are happening? Would we expect these people of Bangwe not to fear? Appeasing whatever causes these accidents so that the accidents stop happening? They should come out in the open then if they can't deal with it to do away with it so that in the public there might be somebody to help. Otherwise it might be that the act of throwing dead chickens themselves is causing accidents.

Comes a Mozambican who seemingly knows nothing about what's happening. His child is sick. He goes to this person asks for help(prayers?). This prayerful person says go throw lemons in the river your child will be healed. Mmmh! Suppose, and it seems to be true, when lemons are thrown in the river an accident must happen so that someone dies and this persons life or whatever, results in the other person getting well. Suppose these Siku people loved their child so much and were told they would get their son back to life if they throw a chicken on this place. So lemons for healing, chicken for rising from death. seems plausible.

Further Investigation:
Find the source. Where do these people who throw dead chickens come from? For they seem to have the same message common with them. Supposed they are questioned why they do these things. Suppose they tell who is sending them. Look out Police, catch every person who has thrown a chicken, or something in this place. Question them why they do this. Then this person could be then tried for murder for all the accidents that have happened. In the least, case breach of peace and inciting fear in this community. It might be that with this lookout these people may fear and stop sending people to throw chicken and lemons and other things and accidents might then stop happening. So either way a good thing has happened.


Scientific Conclusion(mine):
There is evidently a direct relationship between the throwing of chickens and accidents happening and someone getting better or rising from death. however process by which all this is happening has not been explained in physical terms yet. It seems quanta-physical for it is quantifiable.

I will speak - John 3:16

For all the things that God has taken me through I will praise Him.
For even in this day and night and my loved ones are safe in His arms
who created the earth and the heavens for He alone is. For God is
love. And His love endures forever.

--
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Criticism: Whats the Best Way?

The problem I have is a generalized statement without basis. This is what I look at. It attracts me so much. I tend to look it the other way round I see a lot of things that probably might not have been seen. In my thesis my professor might have wanted me to do something simple but there were many statements in the abstract that i was given the made me want to find out more about them. In the end, I ended up proving the conjecture wrong. In addition it made start looking at all things "trivial". It now becomes a problem as I seem to criticise for the sake of criticism.
The generalised statement seemed to be the basis of most of all research concerning the security of the McEliece cryptosystem. That is a code is unlike this then it is secure. What if in one way or another all codes are unlike this statement? Then in the end all codes are insecure. But maybe there is more to security than just looking at this statement and feeling secure. Maybe security is not even affected by this statement at all. Or we might look at degree of security.
Suppose we might have been doing this:looking at specialties of degree of security then with the generalised statement superposed it distorts and changes the direction of a raw cryptographer like me for I might be told this is all there is and I follow that. I will build on that; others will come and will build on that; depending on my level of qualification and popularity it will be difficult for a lay student, even at degree level, who has better truth than what I have built on despite my qualification, to get his truth accepted.
I am attractive to general statement without basis. I ask for basis of the statements. Suppose I bash bash bash and give solution does it help? All these other people have also bashed and given their solutions. I noticed that when I just bashed. People were moving in the right direction finding even better solution than I had thought of. The moment I suggested a solution it all went wrong. Should I bash and give solutions? Should I bash highlighting all the problems there and and live it to the bashed to find solutions? Help me God. For if even criticism does not solve problems show me a way.

On that day!

Oh what a wonderful, wonderful day
A Day I shall never forget,
After I wonder in darkness away
Jesus my savior I met
Oh what a tender compassionate friend,
He met the needs of my heart,
Shadow dispelling, with joy I am telling
He made all the darkness depart.

Heavens came down and glory, He fills my soul,
fills my soul,
When at the cross my savior made me whole, made me whole
My sins are washed away,
and my night was turned to day
Heavens came down and glory, he fills my soul.

Their Victory

"They overcame by the word of their testimony and the blood of the lamb."
It might be at the beginning they failed due to the fear of doing
wrong and losing their salvation. But their testimony of what God is
and what God has done for them must have encouraged them to step out
of the boat and walk on the water. Their only trust was God will help
them through as he had done in the previous experiences.
In the fear of doing wrong they did nothing when this fear was taken
away they did so many marvelous things that the gates of hell could
not hold them their break through was so mighty.
In the past whenever they wanted to do something great the devil made
them fear you will sin don't do it. So they stayed in their "cacoon"
sp.
What shall seperate us from the Love of God? Is it sin? For while we
were yet sinners Jesus died for us. His blood had already paid for all
our sins once and for all.
This is the blood of the lamb with which they overcame with. For when
their fear of sin was taken away they played like Man U does and they
did not find themselves in sin for their fruits were the fruits of
rightiousness and it was impossible for them to bear bad fruits. It is
just impossible. Their victory was mighty indeed for they were really
good.

God's Love for the World

John 3:16:
For God so loved the World that He gave his only begotten Son that
whosoever shall believe in Him should not perish but have everlasting
life.

Here is the Context:
1 There was a man of the Pharisees named Nicodemus, a ruler of the
Jews. 2 This man came to Jesus by night and said to Him, "Rabbi, we
know that You are a teacher come from God; for no one can do these
signs that You do unless God is with him."
3 Jesus answered and said to him, "Most assuredly, I say to you,
unless one is born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God."
4 Nicodemus said to Him, "How can a man be born when he is old? Can
he enter a second time into his mother's womb and be born?"
5 Jesus answered, "Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born
of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. 6 That
which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the
Spirit is spirit. 7 Do not marvel that I said to you, 'You must be
born again.' 8 The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound
of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is
everyone who is born of the Spirit."
9 Nicodemus answered and said to Him, "How can these things be?"
10 Jesus answered and said to him, "Are you the teacher of Israel,
and do not know these things? 11 Most assuredly, I say to you, We
speak what We know and testify what We have seen, and you do not
receive Our witness. 12 If I have told you earthly things and you do
not believe, how will you believe if I tell you heavenly things? 13
No one has ascended to heaven but He who came down from heaven, that
is, the Son of Man who is in heaven. 14 And as Moses lifted up the
serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up,
15 that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal
life. 16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten
Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have
everlasting life. 17 For God did not send His Son into the world to
condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.
18 "He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not
believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name
of the only begotten Son of God. 19 And this is the condemnation,
that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather
than light, because their deeds were evil. 20 For everyone practicing
evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds
should be exposed. 21 But he who does the truth comes to the light,
that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God."

Who is eligible to believe in Him? The world.
Is any supposed to be left behind? People have chosen not to believe
for they might not have understood this gift of God. For non is
supposed to perish. Non. For this gift is for all the world. If you a
person of the world Jesus says "come all you who are weary and heavy
laden I will give you rest. " "For my load is light. "
Call upon the name of the Lord and be saved. When Peter walked on the
water and was sinking he cried out to Jesus, "Jesus! Save me!" Jesus
having marvelled at the courage that Peter had, smiled and came to his
help as a dad watching his child learning to walk. "Peter, where is
you faith?" Peter walked back to boat with the Master rejoicing he had
walked on water. All the other disciples marvelled and said "wow!".
For Peter it was an unforgettable memory that taught him about this
strange man called Jesus of Nazareth the "son of a carpenter". It was
easier for to believe "You are son of God".

Operation Bwezani: Banks - Reloaded

Further observation to the problems with Banking Sector might have
beeb due to misunderstanding between the Bank's Software requirements
on the part of the programmer. For there might have been no one in the
banks to know so much about Banking laws for Malawi to check these
things. And there is no ICT policy it seems in the laws of Malawi but
I adherance to the constution is a starting point. Again I think there
seem no checks if the Banks still adhere to the Banking act.
So I then further propose that there be frequent checks(audits) and
sometimes surprice ones to check the Banks adherence to the Banking
Act and also that the Software they use does force the banks to break
such laws. This should also apply to other cases of injustice I have
observed which I wish to bring to light and suggest a solution.

Typos

What so ever mistakes I make in my posts I blame the computer which
was supposed to be infallible intelligent and accurate. For what came
from my mind had no mistake until I wrote it with this computer. If I
had remained with my pen and not lose my typo detecting skills to
microsoft word I would have possibly retained some of my typo
detecting skills. Some I do not see because of my limited screen for
if it had been on paper I would have flipped quickly and found it. It
is hard to correct typos on limited screen for some passeges are
similar and I end up correcting on the wrong places destroying what
might have better farther. I relearn but slowly to do without spell
check.

Truth, Right and Light

How do I be what I do not know?
There are two truth and lie, right and wrong, light and dark. One
tries to kill, steal, and destroy the other gives himself and dies for
what the other tries to kill, steal and destroy.
Love identifies these. 1 Corinthians 13.

Test Driven Cryptography

In agile software development process, there strategies of
development. Test Driven, Feature Driven, Behaviour Driven Development
processes. Yeah yeah so many ways of development in the end what will
be important will be understanding these and scenarios in which to
apply each. I could write a test and write a code that satisfies the
test but even tests can be wrongly written anyway? How do I write a
test if I do not know what to test? Suppose I write my code the best
way I know how test it the best I know how and write a test to keep
what I have already implemented in check. I think that's better for
me. The I would write code -> test manually -> put the check test. I
think this will stand crash testing better than write test -> write
code -> run test. For if the test is semantically wrong the I do not
know until I have written so much code and now I am crash testing.
While I was writing my thesis I was face with this task to test so
many codes with bigger numbers and the speed was getting slower as the
numbers were getting bigger. I tested several implementation of the
algorithm to generate my require Goppa codes. One was very short one
line. One was very long. One the one that had been used all along but
some improvements. In the end I resolved to remain with the improved
one. For the very should was very memory intensive such that bigger
numbers it was getting even longer. The longer one was very cpu
intensive. The improved one was cpu intensive but faster. The
development of a fast algorithm is slow. I agreed. If one already
knows this algorithm then why not just use it? For it will take longer
to redevelop it.
A programmer tries to find algorithms that improve the runtime.
Cryptographers seem to try to find algorithms to increase runtime.
That's quite a fix, isn't it? For cryptosystems are implemented by a
programmers and I am both. Does increasing cryptosystem stay secure by
using bigger numbers? Suppose there is an algorithm that breaks it in
one step and not depending on the size of the key for that matter?
Quite a fix. Most cryptosystems have been tested their strength based
on the wrost-case runtime. That is, the worst case as seen by the
programmer. For the cryptographer the best case is the programmers
worst case and the worst case is the programmers best case. Quite a
fix.
How do we measure the strength of a cryptosystem? Is it the biggest
running time? Why do we need to hide any way? It seems the best
security so far is adherence to truth, right and light. For whatever
we hide will be found one way or another. If whatever I hide has been
found and it is found not to be bad or discriminating. I am safer
still.

Operation Bwezani: Banks

I would ask when was the Banking Act revised in Malawi? I would
recommend it be revised again so that both banks and their customers
benefit from each other. For banks keep our money which no deniable
they invest. The benefit we get from the is much much less compared to
the interest they get when we borrow from them.
Interesting: I lend the bank K10,000 for two months. My interest isn't
much with interest 4% per annum. I need some money 5 days before
agreed pay back time. If I cancel the agreement I forfeit my interest
and lose much more. There is a provision for a loan against my fixed
deposit at 27% per annum. Interest is chargeable from a minimum of one
month. According to terms of agreement I am supposed to payback the
amount i borrow plus interest. I do not sign until I understand the
terms of agreement which must not change within the period of my loan
as i am explained to by the one helping me. Even though the bank has
included it in the terms. (If the bank reserves the right to change
its terms there is so much room for its deliberate violating the terms
and self-guarding itself by this clause even to the disadvantage of
the client). In my understanding if I payback before one month then I
don't pay with interest. Alternatevely the interest is supposed to be
calculated depending on the days until my payback. That aside, the
terms of agreement indicate that I will be expected to payback the
amount I borrow plus interest thereof which also indicated in the
official section of the agreement form. I payback on the day I
promised to do so but I payback the amount, interest plus an
undisclosed processing fee which I did not know about. Which if I had
known I would have opted to cancel the fixed deposit instead of
getting a loan.
Due to charges dedacted on my account which i do not know about the
changes of which i am not notified even though the bank has my
contacts I thought it is expensive to keep such an account. I look at
other banks and I find a better one much better though this NBS Bank
prides itself to be better than all others. Nop, there are better
banks. I want to close my account for then i would just accumulate
dedactions from an account which I am not using anymore. It would take
me paying a charge of K1,000 to close right away or I have to give 1
month notice not to pay or I have to go to my branch. I said what? On
openning I have to pay on closing I have to pay again? Only me pay!
Pay! Pay! Amounts which I do not know about? Should i spend so much
travelling just to close an account with only K361.15. What kind of
Bank is this that refuses so much that it requires one month notice to
close an account which belongs to me. I asked do I have control over
my account. Did I sign to these terms? He tries to bluff me saying
since you openned it at college during promotion the term of
agreements might have been skipped. So I ask for the current forms for
openning an account. And there not even a single term of agreement but
just certifying that the information I am giving is correct. I ask him
as i have asked before if there any written document concerning the
fees they say they can't disclose to clients. And now talk about
Transperancy! Mmh, NBS Bank, How do I know such fees are being
manufactered? For it hurts to find unexpected amounts being deducted
without ones knowledge.
Revise the Banking Act which might have been made to self-guard the
interests of the rich marginalising the poor so that the people are
protected from being exploited by the banks. This people must not
lack.

Ha ha! Wakoleka Conficker!

Today 16th July 2009 from around 12.00pm to 04.00pm I feel proud to report I have busted Conficker! And done so manually in the process I have learned how I can build a knowledge base of for a virus cleaner/detector/remover. Now to get started. Will have to explain it now or later.

Creating the Vision

We sat down on the floor like little children in our new office. We the people of Baobab Health. It is our thing we are building it together. Every was in it. Everyone took part.
Tay, what can I say.
If I am to work in this place for 10 years what would I like to do. I thought about so many stuff that have hurt me. All the frustrations I have had in my life all the stuff I have seen done in mediocre way which I thought we could do better but wasn't able to do myself. I have never had a chance to say this out. I thought I might as well say it now. It might be that this will be my chance that these problems will now be completely solved. And I might find my joy. For if I don't say it they way I would love it how will I be happy working here? Will I keep on critisizing things I don't give a solution for? So I said it all my dreams, my vision and how I would love it to be. It was emotional and its effects stayed on till now.